Ever hear the saying "The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results"?
Well, it appears that I’m slowly going insane as I descend through the first of Dante’s Circles of Hell…
But like Dante, I feel as though I may have climbed my way through to find hope once more.
As stated previously… this week has not been one of my best.
Despite all intentions to show sympathy and support, I let down a valued and trusted friend. It leaves me ready to bend over backwards to do whatever I can to make their life that little bit easier.
On the flip side, another friend, one who I share a briefer but more intimate history with, has decided for the second time that we are not meant to be friends… and this time, I couldn’t agree more.
I’ve mentioned in previous posts that I’ve never been the best at interpersonal relationships. Be they friendships, family or the more emotional ‘significant other’ kind.
It seems like I’m forever walking the fine line of saying one wrong thing, placing a foot wrong, and alienating myself from people.
And this week has seen me hit a trifecta.
Even to the casual reader of this blog, it’s plainly apparent that relationships of various kinds are a topic that I spend a not-inconsiderable time thinking about.
In my more cynical moments, part of me wonders if men and women are really meant to last in any meaningful relationship. But then I look at a few examples, and realise there is hope on the horizon…
Ever hear the expression “Having the rug pulled out from under you”?
I’ve lived that experience more than a few times. And this time, a follow up expression comes to mind.
“Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.”
Why? Because I’ve recently had the rug pulled out from under me… professionally… and worse, the same exact thing, twice in a row, by the same people.
Only this time, my options are far clearer. Read the rest of this entry »