Ever hear the saying "The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results"?
Well, it appears that I’m slowly going insane as I descend through the first of Dante’s Circles of Hell…
But like Dante, I feel as though I may have climbed my way through to find hope once more.
There’s a saying my former boss used to love: failing to plan is planning to fail.
And in the case of the work we did, it fit perfectly, but it always reminded me of something that a coach I had as a kid used to say: if you aim for nothing, you will surely hit it.
Which is why, for the past two years, I’ve been training and pushing and aiming for a goal set originally by my ambitions, but one that has now become a requirement for the elite level refereeing I’m engaged in…
That goal is to pass the FIFA Futsal Referee Fitness Test… and on Sunday 10th January 2009, I officially achieved that goal. Read the rest of this entry »
Ever hear the expression “Having the rug pulled out from under you”?
I’ve lived that experience more than a few times. And this time, a follow up expression comes to mind.
“Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.”
Why? Because I’ve recently had the rug pulled out from under me… professionally… and worse, the same exact thing, twice in a row, by the same people.
Only this time, my options are far clearer. Read the rest of this entry »
A series of events has transpired that leaves me questioning how I view the world and whether or not I see it for what it is… or if I view it through a set of rose coloured coke bottle lenses.
As the saying goes, “Pride goeth before a fall” and over the years I’ve always prided myself on being an objective person. However, objectivity doesn’t always serve ones best interests, especially in matters of the heart. It tends to leave you dispassionate and detached, and this is hardly conducive to an emotional involvement. In point of fact, the common tag that others label a person like that is ‘cold’.
Ironically, I’m objective enough to see how valid that point of view is, even though in my case I disagree with it.
Lately, I’ve been somewhat disconnected and detached from the world. The interesting thing about being in this situation is that it gives you clarity in observing the world around you… a real sense of KNOWING.
Unfortunately it has the side effect of requiring a lot of effort to feign the social niceties when you lack the will, desire or inclination to factor other peoples feelings into your words and actions. And it’s not so much a lack of empathy, you tend to recognize how others feel and stuff… you just lack the motivation and drive to care.
It is, in many ways, worse than truly having no empathy… because eventually your emotions catch up and hit you like a 2×4 to the back of the head.
And so here I find myself, looking at my life and trying to balance objectivity with emotion in a way that minimizes the collateral damage.
If only I could get to minimum safe distance.
I’ve been thinking about life, death and what we leave behind for those who follow us.
It’s not that I’m being particularly fatalistic, quite the contrary in fact. I’ve been thinking about the impact we each have on the people around us, the world we live in and history in general. Many would have us believe that for the most part, we can’t change the course of history… that it’s momentum and inertia is too great for a single person to alter.
Of course, I disagree… and I think you may too after reading this… Read the rest of this entry »
This post marks my 100th… a minor milestone in the land of blogging. Admittedly it would have been good to have it coincide with a year writing this blog. So, onto the shellacking…
I hear a lot of criticism about professional sports people and those who officiate in various sports.
Umpires, referees, whatever you want to call them.
Armchair generals with no applicable knowledge of the game, players or officials they criticise, making sweeping statements in such a way that to the casual observer, these people are speaking as though they are the sole source of truth.
Well folks, things are coming to a head… time for a wake up call. Read the rest of this entry »